Guilty As Charged

'He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there is always one guy that is perfect for you.' - Credit: Nadya

Me?

I'm not stable and I hope he understands that. But I know, I'm over the limit. And he won't always be there to understand me while I'm the one who never understand him. I'm rude, selfishes and way too over.

Why am I too angry?

I did stopped twice in front of his gate. I did called him twice. He called me back but say nothing. At least I'm expecting him to say; "Tunggu saya dekat..." Anywhere! Maybe we had a different track and there you go, misunderstanding, miscommunication. Then, Miss Elmosi was on stage. She threw tantrums all over him.

Solution?

I don't know. I hate myself. I know he deserves someone better than me. Someone who is less emotional. More tolerance. Someone who won't burdening him with problems. Someone who is more sensible.

I'm guilty. Enough said. But still, words could hurt me back. And at this particular moment, I don't want to have any conversation.


End.


Update:

9:25pm. We had a peace meet-up. Me with my air suam and him with teo suam. Both of us are guilty as charged. We said sorry towards each other. We said we won't be perfect because perfectness is overrated. We said we are going to improve and be better in future. InsyaAllah. Amin amin.